MANICPROJECT

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Current State of Mind

You know, lately i've been feeling more disconnected than ever. Seems like all my supposed "real friends" are too busy with their own lives, I guess this happens when you get older. It's too bad really, because I like my friends. I also find it more and more challenging to break through to the masses with my creativity. There is so much competition out there, a hand-full of it I acknowledge to be legitimate, but there's also so much crap that gets a lot of undeserved notoriety, in my opinion. People's attention span has been shortened considerably with the advancement in technology. Everything is instant and instantly forgotten. On to the next thing! I've always felt like an outsider, ever since i can remember. The only thing i've ever truly connected with is music. If I could have a connection like that with another human being, well, that would be something... I know i'm a complicated person, i'm not everyone's cup of tea. I care too much, i'm too passionate, or i'm not passionate enough. I can't fake it, and i wouldn't want to, ever. What am I trying to say here? Nothing in particular I suppose, just pouring my thoughts out after 3 glasses of wine. Late nigh, as per usual. I hope I don't sound like I'm complaining, I realize I probably do. Let me say that I consider myself to be one lucky and fortunate bastard, but you know, everything is relative... Maybe i'll pour myself another drink and put on some Mad Men. Always seems to make everything better. I don't expect you to understand, just to listen.